Me? I'm a hot mess

I'm starting to have really terrible thoughts. I was just working out, and I had a vision as clear as day that when I walk down the aisle in 2 1/2 weeks, I trip on my big, flowing gown and fall. In my vision, I was too embarrassed to continue with the ceremony, I cried, and ran away.

Yep folks, these are the thoughts that cross a soon-to-be bride's mind. Other pleasant thoughts? I have a huge zit on my chin, Mike decides to bail and stands me up, or it rains that day (our ceremony is outside.) Every night I dream that I don't have any make-up on or my hair done, and I hear the music start that is my cue to go. Even more terrifying is thinking about Mike seeing me without make-up on when I walk down the aisle. He would surely bail then.

It's so weird being in this uncharted territory. I can't imagine doing this at 22, like so many people do. I would have been an emotional hot mess. (Plus, the guy I was dating at 22 dropped out of college and now sells drugs. So life too would be a hot mess.)

When I tell people how close to the wedding we are, they exclaim, "Oh my gosh, how exciting!" I exclaim back, "Oh my gosh, not exciting, just scary!" They laugh, not realizing I'm serious.